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Contact. Intensity. Adaptation. Resolution. Evolution. These are words of PROCESS. Now is a powerful time for process on Planet Earth! As we have said in earlier transmissions.....process is getting to be more important these days than "progress." Just as WHO YOU ARE now carries more power than WHAT YOU DO.....even so..... now comes a time when HOW and WHY you do something is more important than IF or WHEN you do it.

It is not an easy task to activate and balance the emotional body within a society that has learned to discount and even ignore it. As planetary vibrations increase, more and more among you seem desirous of sidestepping the operation altogether. You long to let go of 3D, and "move on" to the Expanded Realms. But this kind of Ascension is only MENTAL. You can leave now, but you will be back. (We speak now in linear concept). All That Is cannot be All That Is if some part is missing. You will always return for the "disowned parts," so your journey can be complete. Besides.....learning how to let go is ultimately what 3D is all about. The time is now upon you where the practice of Personal Authenticity and the Art of Letting Go become the #1 and #2 MORALITY STATEMENTS of the Age. And both of these qualities are most easily developed in physical space.......which is why you are STILL HERE.

If you stand back, and look at something from a distance---anything can be made to look good. It's only when you take off your mask of separation, and gather up close.......looking hard into the mirror of awareness, that all the "kinks" and "blemishes" come into view. Dear Friends.......those "kinks" and "blemishes" are your path to liberation! Do not hide them or try to make them go away. Go INTO them, that you might demonstrate---to your ego self, and to all other aspects of self who might wish to know---BEAUTY COMES IN MANY FORMS AND ESSENCES.

Within the more polarized states of existence, which you oft refer to as Heaven or Hell, everyone tends to look at reality from a distance. This is because a polarized position is forever trying to avoid someone or something---usually its opposite. Little do the extremists among us realize........the best place to "avoid" something is to go right to the center of it. At the very core of everything and everyone, there is A VOID....which is made up of equal parts of everything and nothing. And it is our acceptance of this presence......this swirling, spiraling vortex within..........coupled with our full identification with same.......that becomes an ever-expanding fountain of PERFECT LOVE, flowing through every aspect of life.

The underlying principles of Dominance and Submission are woven throughout the history of human existence. The fact that some people tend to identify with one "side" of the equation more than the other is also quite apparent---with the same dynamic showing up in the area of Sadism and Masochism. Any uninitiated person who goes "window-shopping" on Kink-Net will soon discover that there are intense practices out there, some of which are beyond imagining. But for me, the most fascinating part of this story is watching these dynamics play themselves out in subtler, more universal ways.

Extremes beget extremes. Instead of being a Safe Haven for people of all types, all beliefs---Mainstream Society chooses to place "ideals" in front of us---folks who exemplify "family values"......."God-Fearing Folks," who are honest and true. There are images and codes for living implied in this---ways of being, which those deeply involved in The Lifestyle refer to as "vanilla living."

Different strokes for different folks, eh? (Hmmmmmm......I wonder where we got that expression?) Human Diversity is why Baskin-Robbins has 31 flavors. Personally, I love vanilla. But sometimes, I also enjoy nuts, cherries, and other exotic stuff. My place in this study is to tune in to the ideas, and to help build bridges. And yes, I also expect to learn more about these hidden aspects of ME that are being reflected as well! It seems that all of life is merely a collaboration of "scenes".........which are designed, contracted, enacted, perfected, and then presented to the ALL for consideration and rapport! Then comes EVER-AFTERCARE.....a journey of remembrance and nurturing and loving.......holding each other sweetly, in an eternal Oneself Healing Embrace. It is high time we create a set of "Family Values" which deals more broadly with all aspects of the Human Family---most especially those who are transforming daily, as we speak, into Citizens of the Multiverse.

In our last segment, we left off with our friend Lil (a.k.a Sacryfice) sorting through the tattered dreams of an 8-year abusive marriage---pissed off and emotionally defensive---alternating her attention between raising her 11 year old daughter and adapting to what seemed like waves of unconditional love that were coming at her from this miraculous man who had just entered their lives.

"This man would work with me at my pace. I hated the penis and never wanted to see or touch another one again as long as I lived. They were instruments of torment as far as I was concerned. I didn’t want anything to do with sex. I would shut down and just fake it till I made it. I didn’t want anyone to see me naked. I had been picked apart and dissected and torn from limb to limb by my ex about how horrid my body was. “B” allowed me to move at my pace. He allowed me time to heal. He worked with me......baby-step by baby-step on sex: touching, kissing, my self image, my body. I never have known a man to have such patience…He had the patience of a saint with me!!

Eventually we got a computer…and WOW…did the world get much bigger then!!! I began a spiritual search to try and find what I was looking for and also explored the whole sexual realm of cyber land. Come on…tell me who doesn’t? I almost immediately ended up in the Land of the Witches first and worked my way down the line. I stumbled across a certain Goddess that made Herself loudly known when She arrived. And boy did I get off on Her!!! She lit me up like I had never been lit up before and resonated with every fiber of my being!! At the same time I had stumbled across BDSM, D/s lifestyle and stuff of similar nature and again it totally lit me up and resonated with me like none other!! It excited me, She excited me….Them together excited me and I could feel again!!! It felt like I had found home…and it was in ME and my desires and everything I was told was so bad…only now...it was becoming Ok.

Things began stirring in me. I would read certain Spiritual things and feel a sexual arousal within me…deep, deep within me. It got to the point that I really thought I was a sick individual to get so sexually aroused when reading spiritual things. But then it clicked…it was when I was reading something that really called to me that this would happen. It would occur when reading about this Goddess. I began putting 2 & 2 together. At the same time, my partner, (now known as my Mate), and I were delving a bit into BDSM and D/s. We were doing research on it and drawing from it what might work for us and started putting our own twist in it and what made us comfortable. With my abusive past…I was really hesitant and paranoid, but at the same time, if done in the correct manner, it was the safest way to go!! I mean, in this kind of relationship there is a “power exchange”, there are “safe-words”, there are “contracts”/negotiations, there is communication…there are all of these elements that “normal” relationships should have but don’t! For as long as I could remember I had these urges. Even as a very young girl, there was always this man in my mind that was there…and he was my “Master”…and that man was “B”. See…when I very first met him, I knew him, I had felt him before, but at the time wasn’t sure what it was, just knew that I knew this man. Our eyes met…and they never quit meeting…I knew he was “The One”. But now it was all coming together. My visions that I had my whole life…were right here and now and that scared the hell out of me!

I was discovering the Goddess, I was discovering what had been missing and calling to me my entire life that I never understood. I went through a “dying time”. This scared “B” to death as well and he sat by my bed the whole time. But I had to “die”, so to speak. I can’t explain it any other way. After this experience, The Goddess moved into me and we became One. This was one of the most incredible experiences of my life!!! Wow!!! What an awesome experience that was…but my life has not been the same since. I have been moved at Warp Speed it feels like. Apparently I had a lot of lost time to make up for! So this was the beginning of my LiLith Journey.

LiLith is a very mis-understood woman that has been sorely mis-represented through-out the ages. We both had a tremendous amount to teach one another about Life and we both had a great amount of Healing to do. Not to mention karmic work. And with a Mate like the One I had found…my Soul-Mate…LiLith’s Soul-Mate…did we have some fireworks to deal with!!" <end excerpt>

New! (1/21/2008) Sacryfice has added two new resources to her Web Site:

"The Page of Pain" http://www.moonlitmysticsm.com/thepageofpain.htm

The "SubzClub" (A Resource for Awakening Souls): http://www.thesubzclub.com

It is a well-known fact that many of those who carry the most blessings into 3D experience great suffering during their childhood and early adult years. The Recons speak at length about this in the Spirituality and Sex Transmissions. Those who go through the "fire" are left with layer upon layer of emotional and spiritual scar(e) tissue......which serves as insulation against premature activation (coming into power and remembrance before their time), and untimely expression of the grace they carry within. One of the primary "benefits" a person has in coming to 3D is his or her Vacation in Limitation, which represents quite a thrill and a source of amusement for powerful Multiversal Beings!

When it is time for that insulation to be peeled away, to allow full awakening to take place, the sensations a person feels can be very much like the labor pains of an expectant mother. The "Earth Tremors" which are spoken about in the Spirituality and Sex Transmissions are macrocosmic representations of what also happens in the life of each individual, as he or she prepares to awaken from the "dream" of early life limitation preparation.

A HUNGER FOR BLISS

Our friend Shama continues with her own views of The Lifestyle:

"My experience of BDSM is that it is an exploration of the illusions found in duality. Paradoxically, there are people who can create greater freedom through bondage and slavery than through traditional relationship patterns. They are playing the edges of intense feelings – physical and emotional, through stretching boundaries to deeper understandings, equally valuing and embracing all of life experience, despite how it may appear---playing both sides of the illusion at the same time. Going down the rabbit hole, so to speak, can be an amazingly deep and powerful dance.

From what I have discovered, pain and pleasure are not so different. They are each an intense experience of energy... And depending upon your interpretation of the energy, you will find yourself either recoiling and rejecting it or embracing and relaxing into it. I am not quite sure that this assessment goes across the board. I have some areas where it doesn’t totally ring true for me, but often it is.

The intensity of the energy may be so strong that we can’t handle it and it seems “painful.” The sensory experience becomes so strong that we contract and pull in and away. If intensity is manageable, then we can relax into it and move it in such a way that can be profoundly transformative and orgasmic. Now, please understand that when I refer to orgasm, I am referring to the movement of energy in the body, rather than only that feeling of intensity that happens between our legs. I have done a lot of personal and professional work in this area and it is some of the most effective I have seen.

When one embraces and allows the pain, and focuses it through sound and movement, if we listen to the thoughts, words and emotions that travel through, there may be much to hear and learn about the programs we are running that may be interfering with our full expression of ourselves. From this, new intentions can be set that help us to align more fully with the journey.

This act of moving energy and intense listening through sound and movement is also a way to get in touch with the Source of All within — for this is the source of our inner guidance and our connection to our Divinity. Through sexuality, you do have more endorphins operating and one can raise the bar on the intensity quotient at such times. I have found that when I experience any type of intense energy, flowing with it and making sound with clear intention helps to put the energy in motion..... transforming it powerfully into enlightenment and pleasure. This is surely true for some, if not most physical pain, and true for emotional pain for sure.

There is no limit to the amount of pleasure that is available to us, in body, emotions, mind and spirit. If you can imagine the best orgasm you have ever had and multiply it times one million, it is still better than that! All we have to do is open our “receiving box” bigger and bigger to allow for all the more we can handle.

Pleasure is in the eye of the beholder. There are no rules about pleasure. There is no defined way it “looks” or can be expected. Even pain can be pleasurable as in “it hurts so good" (when receiving a massage). It is an experience of enjoyment that can best happen and be explored when we move into relaxation and receptivity. It is a letting go in the body, and relief, coupled with an allowing. It requires that we relax into a level of trust so that we can open to the experience, and it catches us with some degree of the thrill one can feel flying upwards on a swing. It’s a delicious, earthy vibe that begins where the pleasure is first perceived, and with focus and attunement, it can fill our entire being and consciousness. The more attention given to the pleasure, the more pleasure there is to discover – even in the smallest moment. It’s magick!

Bliss is a vibe as well. I have experienced bliss as an up-leveled, less physical experience of expanded and intense pleasure. It is a very high frequency with multi-dimensional harmonics that open the consciousness beyond physical awareness, much like the preverbial cosmic egg cracking open. The mind has totally abdicated and feeling is the only thing the consciousness knows in that moment. There is a merging that happens, a union into the ONENESS, as a drop of water merging back into the ocean, that is an infusion of energy and feeling a million times beyond the best orgasm. It is all encompassing, ecstatic and beyond description. I have always felt that part of my path is to explore integrating this bliss in my moment-to moment-experience, helping to ground this frequency more in this dimension." <end excerpt>

Many of the links to terms listed above were provided by Lil, and considered to be some of her "best resources" in an area of knowledge where many charlatans and opportunists reside Take what you like and leave the rest.

THE SHADOW

"The Shadow is a moral problem that challenges the whole ego personality, for no one can become conscious of the Shadow without considerable moral effort. To become conscious of it involves recognizing dark aspects of the personality as present and real. This act is the essential condition for any kind of self-knowledge, and it therefore, as a rule, meets with considerable resistance. Indeed, self-knowledge as a psychotherapeutic measure frequently requires much painstaking work, extending over a long period.

Closer examination of the dark characteristics---that is, the inferiorities constituting the Shadow---reveals that they have an emotional nature, a kind of autonomy, and accordingly.......an obsessive or, better, a possessive quality. Emotion, incidentally, is not an activity of the individual but something that happens to him. Affects occur usually where adaptation is weakest, and at the same time they reveal the reason for its weakness, namely......a certain degree of inferiority and existence of a lower level of personality. On this lower level with its uncontrolled or scarcely controlled emotions, one behaves more or less like a primitive, who is not only the passive victim of his affects but also singularly incapable of moral judgment."

"Everyone carries a Shadow, and the less it is embodied in the individual's conscious life, the blacker and denser it is. At all counts, it forms an unconscious snag, thwarting our most well-meant intentions."

"One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious."

~Carl Gustav Jung

I cannot explain how deeply this study is touching me. When Hustler Magazine publisher Larry Flynt was on trial for obscenity, back in 1978, the issue at stake was not morality---it was freedom of expression, under the Constitution. At one point in his trial, Flynt made a statement that has since echoed through the halls of American Judiciary. He said: "Many of you may find me despicable, and the things that I print disgusting. That is your right. But the reason we're here today is the very heart of what it means to be an American. I have a right to express myself in any way I choose. If our system will work for me, outrageous as many think I am, it will work for anybody." He won his case.

Most of the "cases" I am seeking to win these days exist within myself. Some things in life still shock and disgust me. Other things I hold at a distance because I feel unworthy to partake in such ecstatic joy. I want to find out why this is. In fact, I sense there is a direct correlation between shock and disgust, and this personal unworthiness around receiving certain levels of joy. I want to understand that ever more clearly. I've made lots of progress in my years of spiritual growth and practice---but I sense we're only scratching the surface of what could be.

The definitions of "good" and "evil" (like pleasure and pain) exist primarily in the Eye of the Beholder. We are each beautiful and whole, regardless of the paths we choose. That is our position. But 3D illusion can and does make it appear otherwise. This is where FAITH enters the picture. There are no victims, only volunteers. But many of these timeless truths stay hidden from us until we are fully ready to receive certain levels of that faith. Enlightenment and Endarkenment remain two sides of the same coin.

I invite you to continue along with me on this journey. Feel free to share your own thoughts and experiences, or ask any questions you might have. We are only as "sick" as we are secret. The growth truly is in the sharing.

More to Come.

Bridges between Hearts,
Bridges from Soul to Soul,
Harmony is Our Music,

Peace & Love Our Goal.

Mending what once was broken,
division among All-Kind.

Lifting the voices unspoken,

un-veiling the Inner Mind.

Rainbows of Color,
where there once was Black & White.
Rainbows of Illumination,
rather than Dark & Light.
Rainbows within Rainbows,
building Bridges among Bridges,
Immerging into All That Is,
smoothing the rough edges.

Bridges between Hearts,
Bridges from Soul to Soul,
Harmony is Our Music,
with Multi-Verses of Peace & Love
as Our goal.

From *Sacryfice*