"Out of Our Heads, Into Our Senses, Pt. 5"
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A Study of Pleasure, Pain, and Harmonization of Power
Facilitated by Daniel Jacob
Original Reconnections Transmission is Here
Ah yes..........the Magical Child lives! Always present, at all ages and stages of life........though not always adequately appreciated or felt. One thing is for certain........whenever that Inner Child DOES come out of hiding, the effects are instantaneous and sweet!
I have chosen to frame these studies with serialized sharing about Mystical Ecstasy and Power Play,™ as consciously pursued in the practice of Tantra and BDSM. As we "go out of heads, and come to our senses," there are no guarantees WHAT we're going to encounter, so we might as well hit these issues head-on, consciously, and with gusto.
Conscious Focus. Utter Fascination. Playfulness. Joy. Honest Reflection. This is what we're talking about now. These traits are the natural domain of children and animals. They are also the domain of elderly folks who "just don't give a damn anymore" how people see them or judge their behavior. Isn't it interesting how these three viewpoints......children, animals, older folks........are often totally ignored in society? Passed by without notice, as we shuffle off to perpetuate our battle for bread and professional recognition?
Have you ever had someone say to you: "Why don't you just get over yourself?" Or, perhaps, the counterpart to this, which is "When are you going to get out of your own way?" I had a guy say this to me online once, and I retorted back to him: "Jim.........I AM my own way." Having proven how "clever" I could be in a jousting match.....I set about the task of discovering more of what someone means when they tell me to "get over myself."
The Reconnections once had the following to say about "senses," which seems quite relevant to where we are in this study:
"The determination of what is real is a matter of perception, rather than existence. Everything exists, but not everything is perceived. Your senses are not windows to an "objective" universe. They are really FILTERS, blocking from your conscious mind what you have no desire to see." <end quote>
As has been illustrated in their transmission about "Levels of Self"...........the BODY...........or the "first-person level" is almost solely dedicated to exploring those ideas and themes which our Soul finds most troubling to integrate when in the Expanded State. So we sign on to a universe which puts these issues UP CLOSE, and PERSONAL.......so we can work them through. The Guides laughingly refer to the physical dimensions as the "training wheels of the Multiverse."
When in our Limitation Trance, our physical bodies and human personas seem to be ALL we are, ALL we wish to be. But in truth, they actually are solidifications of what we think we AREN'T, in the Multiversal sense. Many Teachers in Metaphysics speak about "clearing" issues in our lives that have been troublesome. They teach us to identify them, make affirmations, conduct rituals and exercises, invoke guides, and generally do whatever is necessary to eliminate unsightly elements from our life picture. But in Oneness, where would "out" be located? Isn't "casting out" something just another level of unconsciousness?
As the Recons emphasize in the above quote: "Everything exists, but not everything is perceived." When we do our "clearing," are we just re-installing FILTERS, to block our view of troublesome issues, or are we actually integrating them to such a degree that they become transparent? You know......CLEAR. The latter soul-ution requires SHADOW WORK, and focus...........which leads us, by the way, to another installment in the life of Lil, a.k.a. Sacryfice.
Sacryfice continues her story.........
"As my Mate and I were going deeper into The Lifestyle, and nurturing our Spiritual Journey, I began examining many of the roots of my self-image---some of which go way back. Part of that involved some serious pondering about my relationship with my Mom. Between my sister and I...I was always the "black sheep of the family" so to speak. I was the "bad one"...even though I really don't remember what was so bad about me. I DID speak up for myself a lot! (imagine that!!) I was strong willed and never went down without a fight. My mouth got me into most of my trouble, I must say.
Interesting side note: Mom went into labor with me on her birthday and so....... my birthday is the day after hers...(both of us Virgo's) She forever accused me of being a "slut"...even though in all actuality I remained a Virgin until the age of 19, and my first lover was my daughter's daddy who died. Mom slapped my face a lot...she held a lot of anger towards me for some reason which she didn't hold for my sister. My sister and I have talked about this a lot, cause she carried a lot of guilt with her about this over the years......feeling like she should've protected me more, or something. Anyway........Mom just had a hard time with me...not sure why other than I wasn't the "quiet submissive" she wished for me to be and I didn't "bow to her" every command.
As another aside, Mom accepts me more today than ever...but that comes after me confronting her about all this a few years ago...telling her that I am an ordained Mystic Priestess.....which had her looking at me cross-eyed and asking: "Do you believe in God?" Mind you, she asked this as she burned holes of fire through my eye balls!!!!
If I can make it through all that and be here to tell about it...I can make it through anything. I simply stayed strong and loving and EXPLAINED to her what The Lifestyle means TO ME, in a form she could understand. When I said God and Goddess...she had NO CLUE who this "Goddess" is.....so i simply asked her if she had heard of the Mother Mary and told her that She, too, was a Goddess...Divine Mother...Mother Earth....and slowly but surely she has come into more of an acceptance of me...and even some Pride!!!
When my Dad was in the hospital for his heart troubles...it was me that got the damn doctors to talk to us. Nobody else had the "balls" to confront them...asking the right questions and DEMANDING answers which we could all understand!! My mom has never forgotten that and she learned to admire those qualities in me. At times, she even says my sister needs to be more like me now....so....yah, Mom has learned a few things, and we do much better these days all around. In regards to my sis...she is finding HER voice now as well....my "birth family"....is experiencing its own healing...even as I have learned to "let go" a bit myself, which is when the real healing began. That was roughly 5 yrs ago." <end excerpt>
DJ: One of the primary drawbacks to utilizing more "conventional" approaches for dealing with issues of self-esteem.......would be an innate bias, held by a majority of Psychotherapists, that every child wants or needs to grow up to be "normal." This is not always the case. In light of current Energy Activations happening now on the planet, our societal model for "normal" is up for renewal and renovation. Among the first elements to be reconsidered would be our collective definitions of "dark and light" and how they are to be handled in community.
Not every mother who believes her daughter to be "Queen of the Damned" is wrong. Sometimes, that assessment of character is absolutely correct.......at least in regards to certain aspects of a girl's life that long to become manifest in the world. Our Dark Mystery Selves deserve acknowledgement, too! Not to be fully consummated in 3D, with malice or carelessness.........but surely to be noticed and honored for the textures and contrasts they bring to our experience.
Shama: "The first time a friend used a flogger on me, I was blown away! It was made of real lambskin, and when it touched my backside, I felt like I was being caressed gently by a soft wet tongue. From that moment on, I was totally hooked!"Some of us come to Earth to embody sainthood, and some come to play the sinners (to use some popular religious jargon). Most of us prefer taking on a bit of both. Those who enter the Reconnection Universe learn how to embrace ALL as SELF.
Some folks are born to wear black. I mean this both in a literal sense and as a matter of personal demeanor. Indeed, my friends...... there are such things as "Demon Children." Their parents know it, they know it, and eventually........society is going to know it, too. The question is: What FORM will that manifestation take? And how do handle such images when they appear? Do we own the reflection, or do we simply lock them away, and forget what we saw?
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The Reconnections once surprised me by declaring, in a session: "One of the primary causes for murder and rape in society is the presence of "good, honest, moral people." I was somewhat taken aback by this, and asked for elaboration. They went on to say: "The more people there are who claim to be 'honest, upright, God-fearing souls'.....the more serial killers, rapists, and thieves must arise to offset them in the Grand Balance." Seen from an Expanded Viewpoint, the Recons have a point!
told me how he once met a distinguished man, a Quaker, who could not imagine that he had ever done anything wrong in his life. "And do you know what happened to his children?" Jung asked. "The son became a thief, and the daughter a prostitute. Because the father would not take on his shadow, his share in the imperfection of human nature, his children were compelled to live out the dark side which he had ignored." (A. I. Allenby, describing his visit with Carl Gustav Jung)Carl Jung
Although Sacry received a blessing in her soul by seeing her mother change her attitude, as she grew in power and self-esteem, her greatest "fuel" for bliss is to actually GO INTO those dark elements which Mom threw at her, early in life. She goes into them, just like the character of Luke Skywalker went into his own special "cave," in the Star Wars movies. Remember? It was a place which Master Yoda described as being "Strong with The Dark Side." Luke asked his Teacher: "What's in there?" Yoda answered: "Only what you take with you."
Sacry, her Mate, and her newfound friends create fantasy universes, into which they also go.... dealing consciously with an imbalance that is created by (so-called) "good, honest, upright" people in the world. Safely, sanely, and consensually..........they become Dark Angels, working the other side of the experience spectrum, making huge strides towards healing the planet as they play.
Sacryfice elaborates a bit more on her internal dynamic............
"You have no idea how hard it is to try and present this journey as gently as I do!! When writing about this stuff I'm usually much more....hhhmm....how shall I say it? "LiLith"!!! LOL !!! ........blunt...cut to the chase...no holds barred...raw...primal...You've gotta remember that THIS is MY Core......and so I really have to hold the reigns tight on Her at times. I'm not denying her beauty...don't get me wrong....but if SHE was cut loose in public, if "vanilla" folks had to fully face Her level of reality, all at once......they would drop like flies. I know this and this is why I stay in the "Godly Slave Girl" mindset most of the time...it helps me keep Her energies where they need to be for the time being.
Another thing which bears mentioning is this fear of "Darkness" which many people have.
There IS "Darkness" which leads to more Darkness. And there is Darkness which leads to Light.. I call it "Dark/Light." I first came to my deeper understanding of this principle when it hit me that my own Darkness comes from the Earth....the "color" of the Earth...the "inner earth"...so to speak.. I am of that "inner earth"...yes?....so of course my "Light is Dark"....my "power" comes from that core. And when Light is held in the Earth, it appears Dark. So, in essence...my Light is Dark...and my Dark is Light...and it's all good! This understanding was very empowering for my "Whole Self."I've walked folks through all of this many times. It is a scary trip for them to visit the "dungeon/charnel" grounds which dwell deep within. In regards to my own practice of The Lifestyle, I'm what we called a "Switch." I have a Master and I am his slave, but I also have submissives of my own. Some relate to me in e-mail, some are locals. All are MINE!!!! As I carefully walk them through their journeys of inner discovery, my own journey expands as well.
So many people are afraid of what they will find out about themselves if they take this journey...what they might end up liking that they have judged and cursed and looked down on all of their life. It's not easy to look in the mirror. But we must look if we wish to get to the Other Side. It CANNOT be forced...it CANNOT be rushed....it MUST be as gentle of a walk as it can possibly be! It really is quite a beautiful walk to take someone on and watch as they discover the sensations....the stirring that begins inside and keeps growing.
It's a Dance. I take a step forward....they watch what I do and stick their toe in to the water. I stand there as they immerse themselves at their own pace..........slowly..........slowly.......... and I watch and wait until they are ready for the next step.
They look..........they feel.........maybe make a joke or a gesture.....waiting...wanting a wee bit more now....so then I take another step and stop.....again...they "look" and stick their toe in.....and the Dance goes on at THEIR pace. With me, they have a hand to hold and someone letting them know that it's all going to be okay. And don't forget we have "safe" words, too.
The feeling of personal safety is of the utmost importance...as I'm sure you know! THIS is the MOST vulnerable place a person can ever go!!! This is the rawest of the rarest inside view.........and soooo many people have done really desperate and stupid things to "feed" their hunger...just to keep it a secret from others because it holds such a stigma of shame, filth, perversion...everything ugly * sinister!! I see such beauty in this part of the Soul!...It is PRIMAL!!!!!!!!! It is REAL!!!! It is ALIVE!!!!....and I WANT IT!!!!! I want to FEEEEL it WITH Them!!!! I want to be part of that wonderful first time experience every time we go there!!!!
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"scenes" are alike when natural, uninhibited energy gets flowing through our parties!!!!! And I KNOW the Trust that it takes to "go there" with someone..so I KNOW the GIFT I am recieving when ALLOWED to go there with them. I take Pride in the Trust I have EARNED. If I had not had to EARN it...I wouldn't really want it. Your enthusiasm and curiosity makes me chuckle!!! And yes...what I am presenting to you is BARELY the tip of the iceberg here!! Truly....nothing is untouchable in the realms of BDSM...it's how far one wishes to stretch their own mind & limits & boundaries until one has achieved their own level of freedom. And it IS true, you know, what they say...........BONDAGE CAN MAKE YOU FREE."Copyright, 2007, by Sacryfice. All Rights Reserved.
New! (1/21/2008) Sacryfice has added two new resources to her Web Site:
"The Page of Pain" http://www.moonlitmysticsm.com/thepageofpain.htm
The "SubzClub" (A Resource for Awakening Souls): http://www.thesubzclub.com
A lot of us live life up in our heads. In Metaphysical Jargon, this is called "being locked in a Tower." Alfred Lord Tennyson's great poem "The Lady of Shallot" speaks clearly about this plight. A lonely woman, locked in a tower---spins quietly at her loom, day and night. All she knows of the world is what is reflected in the mirror she has hanging on her wall. She shivers in fear over that curse that has been laid upon her, which says: "if you look directly at life, head-on, you will die." So she weaves and weaves, and quiets her soul..........until one day.....Lancelot appears, alone on his horse. She sees his helmet and his plume. Love beckons her to come down, out of the Tower, and join him in Camelot. Slowly, tentatively, the Lady turns 'round and looks directly out the window. Her mirror cracks, from side to side. Undaunted........she ventures forth from the Tower, and sets out in her boat to meet him.
To go out of our heads and to enter the World of our Senses can be a risky proposition. In the poem, the Lady DOES die, while on her way to find her love. But in the dying, a beautiful song is heard and continues to be heard to this very day. Did she really die, or did she simply change form.......graduating to another level of being?
Physical Life can carry the beautiful scent of many roses. Yet each rose has its thorns. Can we take the pain of the thorns as part of the pleasure? Or, more succinctly.........can pleasure even be perceived, if we don't have some backdrop of pain with which to contrast it and offset the experience? Only the Shadow knows.............
Give Me Your Pain
Art by Nan Derressa
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Give me your pain.
And I will hold it safe for you,
keep it on a shelf for you.
And find a way to make the pieces fit.
Together, we might even make some sense of it.
It cannot hurt me half as much
can't destroy me, when I touch
that secret place that no one knows,
the sorrow you don't dare to show.
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Hand me your tears.
And I will save them in a jar.
Sealed with love, but not too far
from where we dance, and laugh, and play---
I'd never throw those tears away.
They cost too much to waste, you see.
Give those precious tears to me.
And they will glisten in the sun---
and comfort us when day is done.
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Tell me your dreams.
And I will hold them in my heart
and honor them, like works of art.
And weave them into tapestry---
upon the wall, for all to see.
I'll nurture them and help them grow---
wind them up and make them go.
Just place them here, upon the floor.
Then lay back and dream some more.
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Sing me your song.
Let it ring out loud and clear
in tones that only I can hear.
And I'll record each precious line,
a symphony of joy divine.
I'll orchestrate the melody
to match the heart that I can see
And they'll remember you were here.
And play your song in future years.
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Show me your soul.
I'll recognize just who you are---
and write your name across the stars.
And comfort you when we are old.
I'll keep you sheltered from the cold.
To give to me all that I ask
To share yourself, remove your mask---
Will make us One in space and time.
You give me yours, I'll give you mine.
© Daniel Jacob, 1993. All Rights Reserved.
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