Part Five
"Behaviorally Disordered?"
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The gorgeous young creature smiled, as she threw back her head and drank in the sunlight of his attention. He was an insurance investigator, and she was the supposed girlfriend of a man who had just put a shotgun in his own mouth two days earlier and blown himself away in front of his Christmas tree.
"Do I make you nervous?" She queried, with an expression that resembled Sharon Stone's character in the movie "Basic Instinct." She noticed that he was about 35, handsome, and officious in nature. He obviously was a man of some personal power and poise. She was only 19.
"No, I'm used to looking at beautiful women……" he said, offering back to her what was left of a boyish grin, making his best attempt to disarm her with sincerity and just a touch of innocence.
"Do you want to fuck me?" She answered back, unblinking and completely calm, as though she was a waitress asking a hungry customer whether he wanted a cheeseburger or a bowl of chili.
His face blanched. He stammered and shifted on his feet and said: "Uh……..uh……excu-u-u-use me?"
"I said……." she repeated calmly. "…… do you want a CUP OF TEA?" Her face did not betray a single emotion.
He was taken aback, but calmed by the belief that he obviously must have misunderstood her the first time. Therefore, the young detective continued to ask her his usual questions. However, from that point on, he was totally and completely hooked on her.
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The above scene is part of the opening segments of a new movie that has just been released on video. It is called "The Whispering," and it is a character exploration, in depth, of people who commit suicide. Though the viewer realizes, at the onset of the movie, that the plot is purely fictional--there are several points at which we become completely convinced that the writers and director of this piece must have had some very definite experiences with our beloved Star Children.
Shortly after the scene mentioned above, the insurance investigator regains his composure enough to turn the tables on his clever young friend. Through personal disclosure regarding the death of his own sister, and a clear expression of shock and grief that is the result of losing someone that close, the handsome young ex-detective finally convinces her that he is one of that rare breed of "grown ups" that she can really trust.
At that moment, the young girl drops her air of casual bravado and looks the man squarely and earnestly in the eyes.
"You'll have to forgive me……" she says. "I don't take compliments very well. I have some behavioral problems. The feisty façade is to ward off evil spirits. There's really a nice person in here…..somewhere…..so they say….." <excerpt from the movie: "The Whispering">
LIVING INSIDE THE WALLS
The Star Children who are growing up right under our noses are intellectually gifted and cunning beyond belief. What many of them often lack is the sense of self esteem that would activate that bundle of frozen potential into something tangible and useful.
Those of them who simply conform with society and move on into "respectability," are still very wild creatures who simply live under external restraint. This requires the construction of internal *walls* of protection, in order that "outsiders" will be prevented from contaminating the inner sanctum of the Star Child's consciousness---the place where motivations are stored and nurtured. Those who find that they simply cannot "sell out" in order to get by, become what psychologists call "behaviorally disordered."
This whole idea of a disease process that is called a "disorder" was invented by men and women who make their living from defining and changing the attitudes and actions of others. Many of the basic premises and techniques for change, used by these therapists and doctors, are built from an extremely masculine (heavily logical) paradigm that holds a core belief that order is equal to happiness. In such an out-of-balance society, everyone strives as much as possible to become or to remain "normal."
META-NORMAL BEHAVIOR
Star Children are *anything* but normal, and they will readily admit that *order* is not the highest priority in life. Anyone who takes a look at a Star Child's room or his apartment will verify that. Mostly, they seek the invocation of *passion,* though the term itself may not have meaning to them. To the adult mind, passion is equal to lust or an intense charge of emotion. To the younger mind, however, the ruling force in life becomes whatever unique blend of mind and emotion that can be compacted and distilled into a tall cup of liquid NOW.
The *now-moment* is an extremely powerful element in the life of a Star Child. He or she will do almost anything to activate and sustain that focus. One Spirit-Guide, a Teacher regarding things magical and esoteric, summed the whole matter up thusly: "The NOW MOMENT is a multi-dimensional vehicle that can take a person anywhere and anywhen that he wishes to go. The only thing that a traveler must remember is that he must keep his hands and feet inside the car."
The mental awareness, or focus of attention within the mind of a Star Child is equivalent to the cursor on a mouse that accesses a vast and resourceful computer network. To make the system work, there must be an in-the-moment, 100%investment of self.
Whereas their Baby Boomer parents have learned to be comfortable with half-hearted commitments to tasks or goals, a Star Child cannot function that way. Neither will his or her meta-system be turned on through a deliberated act of will. An activity that has no meaning to the youngster, but is forced upon him or her, will only jam the system and kill the SC's sense of self-esteem.
Once a "file" has been opened in the meta-mind, and a "link" has been established concerning the situation or individual with whom they are interacting, the Star Child is then free to *multi-task,* by sincerely and whole-heartedly linking with another focus of awareness. When all the motivations are aligned, each level of the multi-task will function perfectly and flawlessly. Such is the state of the internal *equipment* that came in with these kids.
Somewhere, within some "program manager" that collates and mingles all of the input which is involved in each genuine interact, there is a vibration produced which faintly resembles *juggling,* except that the balls that are spinning in the air are actually TONES of energy. This is why *music* usually plays such an important role in a Star Child's life. Those who work with fully functional (and often behaviorally disordered) Star Children often notice that they tend to unconsciously *sing* to each other when they are working, studying, or just sitting together.
Though patterns is often present, concerning how these tones are processed and utilized by the SC, such pattern may be very elusive to the eye of an adult. This is because Chaos Energy is a prime component required for processing information within the mind of meta-humans.
The Chaos Factor produces an inner environment wherein *freedom of thought* is more important than *clarity of thought.* The patterns analysis which might normally betray the core nature of a Star Child, thereby making him or her predictable, will be purposely obscured. In some cases, it may even be symbolically encrypted, so that "outsiders" cannot get into the system and pollute the process.
GROUPTHINK
To speak within a group of Star Children is to be surrounded by a force, a wave of energy and curiosity. Usually "adults" don't get invited. That is because they want to bring with them "lessons" and "teachings" about what these kids should be or what they ought to think. The adults reason that their experience should entitle them to preach a bit about what is happening and where things should go. In truth, a Star Child is usually not interested in anyone's experience but his own (or the experiences of a few close friends).
However, when there are older folks who manage to pass muster, the event is one that will not soon be forgotten. The entire generation that came in with the Comets, as well as those that followed, is equipped with the internal software to access a level of Oneness which is called "Groupthink." This is the very same frequency of vibration that all oppressed or harassed people have the ability to contact when they are living under tyranny.
The OneMind is an example of "hive mentality" that has been translated into human form. In a way, it's like the Computer Network for a huge business conglomerate. An interested spectator can sign on to the system, and can automatically empath and/or intuit the whole of the group agenda in that locale, providing that he or she knows the proper passwords.
In truth, were it not for the heavy infusion of Chaos Energy, the Star Children could easily become a cult. However, the essentially anarchistic nature of these young people helps to prevent that, except in extreme cases of need for parental affirmation. Mostly, young people of this generation will decide to sign on to their Inner-Net…..<s>……so that they can insure protection for themselves against the probings and meddling of the establishment.
When speaking within a group of Star Children, the first thing one might notice is that everyone uses a vernacular which Spirit calls "The Oneself, We." In short, this method of communication will substitute the word "I" or "me" with the words "us" or "we." This is not just done for effect. Rather, it is a true and genuine expression of the fact that these kids are usually quite tapped into each other--counting all other members of the group to be parts of *self.*
Each of them tends to speak *for* the group, naturally assuming that there exists a state of confluence with all the minds involved. This is not mere presumption. Rather, it is the first signs we have seen on the planet of genuine *telepathic connection.*
We use the expression "speaking WITHIN a group of Star Children" to emphasize that very few outsiders manage to successfully speak TO them. When someone tries to force a lecture upon these kids, there is an invisible (Crest) shield that is instantly put up. To the observer, it manifests itself as a very distant stare within vacant eyes. When those signs are present, the adult who is speaking may as well save his or her breath. At that point, rapport is gone, and so is access into "starchild.com"
RELIGIOUS CONNECTIONS
If there are any profound religious connections which tend to be favored by the more conscious (and often categorized as disordered) Star Children, the two which seem to predominate are Wicca and Paganism. The profound focus of each of these faiths upon the Earth and upon natural freedom of expression (especially sexuality) is very appealing to these fresh young minds.
Contrary to popular thought, a fully functional and awake Star Child is probably not promiscuous in the way some Baby Boomers have come to think of the term. There is a profound respect for sincerity and honesty in personal connections and, in their point of view, dogma really has *no place* in the process at all.
The way to remove the "disorder" from these young people's relationships is not to force upon them the same edicts and dogmas their parents swallowed. It absolutely won't work. What Star Children need is to become fully awakened to who they are and what they came here to do. They need space and encouragement to do that. Once the intuitive nature is on line and intact, everything sorts itself out wonderfully, though not always a we might expect.
As has been stated before, all decisions and interactions take place from a juncture of *both* the mind and the emotions. For a fully awake SC, idealism is much less emphasized. It all seems to narrow down to what *seems right* at the time.
Another exciting element of Star Child existence is the fact that they are often nocturnal in their lifestyle---preferring to sleep during at least the first part of the daylight hours (when others are busy at work) and working/playing far into the early morning hours. This can be seen as a counter-cultural badge of honor for the them, a kind of "mini-victory" over the establishment which has become so invested in silencing the distinctiveness of their viewpoint.
It is not surprising that many SC are quite taken with computers. The rise of computers and the Internet has made noctural living a very desirable and accessible thing. Some computer people are often nicknamed "vampires," drawing heavily upon the intuitive flows of energy which occur during the rise and transit of the moon. Though the only red juice that is likely to be seen around a computer nerd's lips is the left-over tomato sauce from day-old pizza, the parallels in lifestyle have turned much of cyberspace into a kind of New Transylvania.
FASCINATIONS WITH DEATH
Vampires have a very powerful symbolic attraction to some of the more aware and awake Star Children. In literature, vampires are referred to as "The Undead." In a thousand ways, the vampire seems to earnestly desire and seek after death. In one scene from the original 1931 classic "Dracula," starring the legendary Bela Lugosi, the Prince of Villainy is once overhead saying: "To die. To be really dead. That must be *glorious.*"
In such cases, death does not necessarily seem to be sought after as a vehicle for bringing peace into the vampire's experience. Rather, it seems like a final *liberation* from the physical ego towards which he or she journeys across time and eternity. At their heart, Star Children know that this "liberation" is something that many people are seeking, though few people will consciously admit to having such a morbid desire. The rock singer Jim Morrison, of the famous group "The Doors," was said to emphasize a death wish in much of his poetry and songs.
Star Children who are barely awake to who they are, or who are severely introverted, will long for death (transformation) at some portion of their being. They may express such a longing in many ways. They will sometimes engage in acts of violence against society, or there will be trends of outward non-comformity and eccentric behavior. They will also indulge in a careless usage of drugs (which are often the only way they can silence the voices inside their heads), and membership in abrasive or politically disruptive gangs and organizations.
AUTO-EROTICISM
In a sense, the fascination with death and danger is truly a form of self-stimulation on a grand scale. It is produced, to some extent, by *boredom* that has been cultivated into frozen rage. The threat of impending doom or destruction has long been considered the ultimate in thrills. Unfortunately, it also can be the ultimate in disintegration as well.
It has been speculated that the lead-singer for the rock group INXS, who was found hanged in his hotel room not too long ago, did not die so much from classic suicide as much as he died from a severe form of auto-eroticism carried beyond his ability to regain control. Such dare-devil attitudes are usually only achieved with pharmaceutical assistance.
Still, the Star Children are keenly aware of their connection to eternity even though they inhabit physical bodies here and now. In the Celtic Society, and in the religion of the Druids, there was little difference that was depicted between the physical world and the other levels of existence. Human sacrifices during that time in history were quite common, perpetrated to prove how certain the subject was of his re-cycling and return to physical form. Star Children understand this, though they often cannot put that understanding into words.
In the opening scenes of the movie mentioned in the beginning of this article, "The Whispering," the screen flashes a poem that graphically depicts this connection. It is a poem that speaks of the agony of life on the planet for people who are incredibly aware, but poorly supported to function fully in that awareness. In a way, it is like a song that this "Generation X" is singing to us during this time. It could also be an alarm clock that they are using to try and wake themselves as well . It goes like this:
Another nightmare to fill my dreams
And when I awake
pale face and gentled eyes
The voices in my head
bury themselves deep
somewhere inside my mind
And when I wake
the voices inside my head
be only my tortuous thoughts
Until I find no peace
And dream of endless sleep.
(from the new movie:
"The Whispering")
If the reading of these words is distressing for Baby Boomer parents, or even grandparents, it cannot hold a candle to the sadness and restlessness that is building within our generations of Star Children. Whether they are first-wave, second-wave, or whatever---many of them are screaming within themselves for something meaningful and eternal to change in this world in which we all live.
It's also true that some of our precious Star Children will die, right before our eyes. When they go, some of them will orchestrate things so that many hearts and minds will be opened wide by their passing. If they cannot teach us in life, then their lessons will be delivered in death. We must remember that it was the slow courageous death of Ryan White that saved singer Elton John from a destructive path of drug addiction. So it will be in many corners of our small world.
We parents must WAKE UP, wake up………and not miss the blooming of our youthful Star Child Oneself. Why not just sell the boat, leave the office early, and sneak up on these gifted people and silently *watch them* when they least expect it? Baseball games are fine, and so are dance recitals and soccer tournaments. However, the real meat of this process of learning and observation is to be had when they are *not aware* of what they are doing.
We must remember, too, that most of these kids do not understand this entire process either. Therefore, we must not freak them out through over-attention. A balanced, casual yet inquisitive, attitude seems to work best at this time.
AWAKE OR ASLEEP?
At this point, there are a lot of Star Children who are simply asleep to who they are and what they carry inside them. Like the rest of us, they have been taught to conform to a set pattern of life and belief and they seem very content to remain that way. Many of them look very "normal," acting much like the generations of children who came before them. The difference exists within the internal mental "software" that is carried inside them. Of course, some SC will *never* install or access those viewpoints. So be it.
At this point, those who are awakening will usually have some degree of angst or "disorder" which is attached to them. This is primarily because our world at present is *not* organized to function from the viewpoint or agenda of a Star Child. Many of them will have difficulties in school, socially, or in their relationships to the immediate family. Many SC feel as though they are aliens, born into the wrong place or ancestry. For that matter, many Baby Boomers have felt that way as well. As we have previously shared, there are many Baby Boomers who carry the SC Software inside them as well.
Spirit often instructs that it is best to let sleeping dogs lie. The process of unfoldment is a difficult one, requiring every bit of strength and focus that a person can muster. Unless the situation cannot be avoided, it is probably best to avoid inquiry into the spiritual side of our children until they begin to show interest or motivation themselves. This would be a sign that they are ready to wake up, and their own inner agenda will dictate how input will take place.
If parents have already taken the time and effort to indoctrinate their children about faith and spirit, it really does no harm unless the Star Child begins to resist. When resistance takes place, and there is a battle of will that ensues, the real loser in the situation is the child's self esteem. Baby Boomer parents who cannot keep their own agendas under control may need to be introduced to the realization that it is better to have a well-adjusted non-comformist in the family than an unhappy person who simply forces him or herself to comply to outward edicts. Such arrangements can, in a worst-case scenario, end in disaster.
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DJ.
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